Feb. 3rd, 2008
I met a boy. And I don't even know if he's gay, but I kinda like him. And am I completely insane to kinda like a boy right now when I certainly have other things to be thinking about...
He's really nice. And kind of withdrawn, but that's okay because I am too. I'm not afraid of him. I was afraid of men out there because they're all...uhm...greedy. But he's different. I think he's different. He feels different.
I am insane. Argh! I'm all confused and shaky and sort of...vulnerable. Did I mention confused?
Life is so...unlinear. Everything is so simple when all you care about is heroin. It's all crap too, yeah. But simple. Now there's complicated things and I have to think and decide and be responsible and argh!
He's really nice. And kind of withdrawn, but that's okay because I am too. I'm not afraid of him. I was afraid of men out there because they're all...uhm...greedy. But he's different. I think he's different. He feels different.
I am insane. Argh! I'm all confused and shaky and sort of...vulnerable. Did I mention confused?
Life is so...unlinear. Everything is so simple when all you care about is heroin. It's all crap too, yeah. But simple. Now there's complicated things and I have to think and decide and be responsible and argh!