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I scared a girl today. I cracked the shits. That place is just so...augh. I don't know. But I went back in. I left to get some air, and I went back in, dammit.

This is hard. It's hard it's hard it's hard and I want you all to know because then my trying will mean something. Every day, I want to run away, and every day I have to make myself stop. And I do, because I'm not leaving again. But I need you to know what I'm going through. Maybe...so you know how much you're all worth to me?

I can't believe I yelled at that girl. But she was being stupid. She called rehab 'exciting'. And she wants my firm little body, but she can't have it!